#I knoe this is very long

[lykosog]

Robb,  like  all  of  the  Stark  siblings,  has  a  very  deep  connection  to  his  direwolf  and  it  has  significantly  contributed  to  many  of  his  victories.  For  example:

“How  did  the  king  ever  take  the  Tooth?"  Ser  Perwyn  Frey  asked  his  bastard  brother.  "That's  a  hard  strong  keep,  and  it  commands  the  hill  road.”

“He  never  took  it.  He  slipped  around  it  in  the  night.  It's  said  the  direwolf  showed  him  the  way,  that  Grey  Wind  of  his.”

I  believe  that  in  his  dreams,  Robb  experiences  visions  through  Grey  Wind's  eyes.  Yet,  when  he  wakes  up,  he  remembers  very  little  of  them  and  has  to  send  scouts  to  explore  the  possible  areas  where  the  place  he  saw  could  be  until  they  locate  it,  allowing  him  and  his  men  to  use  it  as  needed.

Due  to  his  vague  memories,  Robb  didn't  initially  realize  his  abilities.  and  it  is  only  later  on,  as  his  bond  with  Grey  Wind  grew  stronger,  that  he  began  to  understand  how  he  moved  and  sensed  things  in  his  dreams.  Although  his  connection  was  never  strong  enough  to  experience  the  taste  of  a  kill,  this  realization  frightened  him  and  made  him  wary  of  both  his  abilities  and  his  direwolf:

And  there's  the  heart  of  it,  Catelyn  thought.  “He  is  part  of  you,  Robb.  To  fear  him  is  to  fear  you.”

“I  am  not  a  wolf,  no  matter  what  they  call  me.”  Robb  sounded  cross.

In  my  opinion,  this  is  the  main  reason  why  Robb  distanced  himself  from  Grey  Wind,  believing  that  the  farther  apart  they  were,  the  less  it  would  continue  happening  to  him.  This  decision  had  significant  consequences,  as  ignoring  Grey  Wind's  signals  ultimately  led  to  his  downfall.  Everything  around  Robb  reeked  of  treason  and  betrayal,  and  Grey  Wind  was  the  only  one  who  could  sense  it:

Sybell  Spicer,  who  made  sure  Robb  never  had  any  children  with  Jeyne:

“Growling  and  snapping  [...]  he  terrifies  her mother.”

Rolph  Spicer,  who  was  part  of  the  plan  that  led  to  the  Red  Wedding:

“I  am  not  going  to  banish  him  just  because  my  wolf  doesn't  seem  to  like  the  way  he  smells.”

The  Freys,  at  the  Twins:

Grey  Wind  edged  forward,  tail  stiff,  watching  through  slitted  eyes  of  dark  gold.�� When  the  Freys  were  a  half-dozen  yards  away  Catelyn  heard  him  growl,  a  deep  rumble  that  seemed  almost  one  with  rush  of  the  river.  Robb  looked  startled.  “Grey  Wind,  to  me.  To  me!”

Instead  the  direwolf  leapt  forward,  snarling.

and:

There  was  more  trouble  at  the  gatehouse.  Grey  Wind  balked  in  the  middle  of  the  drawbridge,  shook  the  rain  off,  and  howled  at  the  portcullis.  Robb  whistled  impatiently.  “Grey  Wind.  What  is  it?  Grey  Wind,  with  me.” But  the  direwolf  only  bared  his  teeth.

[starheirxero]

So it was Ruin all along! To be honest, I am rather surprised, as it just seemed a little too obvious. However, like many others, I think it's a Jekyll and Hyde situation, and there's a specific reason!

This might be incoherent at best, but I will try my best to explain my thought process!

So, my reason for thinking of it as a Jekyll and Hyde situation is, rather simply, because he is an Eclipse. It is his canonical name, after all! However, unlike the Eclipse we know, and unlike Solar, he is not a part of Moon's code inside Sun's body, and rather is both Sun and Moon at the same time.

An interesting thing to note is, that it's never told to us what kind of eclipse he is. Is he a solar, or a lunar eclipse?

I think it's both.

I think there are two Ruins in one body. One is a Solar eclipse, and one is a Lunar eclipse. Both of them having different personality traits from Sun and Moon respectively.

The solar eclipse is likely the infected one. He has the theatrical and over the top nature Sun used to play up in the first videos, and the games. Meanwhile, he has Moon's intelligence. Able to rebuilt people, always planning ahead, etc.

The lunar eclipse is likely the one we've been spending our time with. He has Sun's anxiety and insecurities. Suprisingly, we don't see as many traits of Moon in him, but they are definitely here.

One thing to point out is, that one side of his face is white with a blue eye, and the other black with a red eye, which feels kind of symbolic, though it's most likely just a design choice.

The biggest question would be their existence. Why would there be two?

I am really not sure, but there are a few speculations!

One could be, that the two split due to the virus. That perhaps the virus created another personality, caused by the fact, that they are not meant to be one.

Another idea could be, that the solar side created the lunar side, as a parallel to the show's dimension. Perhaps the solar one pulled out certain personality traits that they weren't fond of, and gave them to the lunar one. Or perhaps they just split themself. Maybe this way, the virus was able to protect itself!

It's just a silly little theory though! I just thought, it's interesting, that the kind of Eclipse he is is never specified, given that we have a Sun, a Moon, two Solar Eclipses, a Lunar eclipse, and a Bloodmoon, y'know?

-Stardust

OH!!! OUHHHHH!!!!!! OUHG OKAY FIRST OF ALL THATS A SUPER FUN WAY TO VIEW RUIN OMG??? AND SECOND OF ALL I THINK I GET EXACTLY WHAT U MEAN AND HONESTLY I SUPER SUPER LOVE THAT!!!!!!

If it did turn out to be like that too, then it could sort of feel like a subtle nod to how people usually portray canon Sun and Moon, even the show itself!!! And stars honestly imo it would just make Ruin more interesting too!!

And any of ideas on how they could have split could be super fun to explore.... Specifically the one where the virus made them split gives the mental image of how water melting and freezing over and over in a crack can cause it to get bigger and bigger until it breaks apart, yk??? The virus just wiggling in deeper and deeper until the last bit of communication just snaps.

MAN I am like super vouching on some of these tbh HEHAHAJD I JUST BLORBO'D RUIN TODAY I'M NOT READY FOR HIM TO ENTER HIS VILLAIN ERA 2.0 /silly

[hwanghyunjinenthusiast]

I don't know if I want to write a mini-series about Stray Kids as American football players or if I just want to focus it around one member. Hmm.

[satellitesunset]

myle.txt

[tony-andonuts]

Vent time ^-^

I am so fucking hyperaware of the fact that I am slowly deteriorating myself to make life better for others. It is second nature for me to offer anything i have to someone before anyone else can interject. The only way my coworker is able to help me out without me shooting them down immediately is by getting me to say my to-do list and then very silently doing some of those tasks. I so badly wanna keep making others' days better butlike. Girl Im at my limit and this is so unreasonable for me to say and I know butlike I really wish someone would just force me to stop like i do to others and then care for me. Even if just for an evening

[mahalkheeta]

— BABY DON'T STOP

genre: jake x fem! reader

summary: overstimulating sim jaeyun. that's literally it.

warning: oral (m. receiving), overstimulation, petnames (sweetheart, baby, princess, etc.) tad bit of crying, cursing, cumming

note: thank you to the loml @dear-hoon for brainrotting with me ily 🫶 the desire to have jake's cock in my mouth was so strong so i made this LMFAO. again, this is smut sooo MINORS DO NOT INTERACT !!

there are very few things jake loves more than having his cock shoved down your throat. he'd give up heaven and everything else to feel the way your small mouth squeezes around his length, to hear the way you moan as you take him in inch by inch. in his humble opinion, he thinks having you blow him is quite literally one of the best things in the world.

"f-fuck, princess..." he curses, his accent thick and heavy as an airy moan echoes around the once silent room. his veiny hands tangle themselves into your hair, pulling and squeezing everytime your toungue laps at his sensitive tip.

his eyes roll to the back of his head as your mouth sucks sweetly on his head, the satisfied moan you let out sending vibrations down his entire shaft. he swallows thickly, trying to hold off his impending orgasm. he doesn't want this to end so quickly.

"just like that, sweetheart," he whispers, his breath hitching in his throat. his abs clench when you bob your head, a hiss of ecstasy tearing from his throat once he feels your hands fondling his balls.

"you're makin' me feel so– ahh! fuck– so good!" he can't help the way his eyes roll to the back of his head, one of his hands letting go of their tight grip on the sheets to rake his fingers through your hair. you can tell he's dabgerously approaching his high by the way his veiny hand tenses on your head before grabbing a fistful of your hair instinctively, pushing your head further down only to feel your throat squeeze around him.

hoarse moans tumble endlessly past his parted lips, his adam's apple bobbing with each breathless curse as he throws his head back. you were sending him to another world with the way you sweetly suckled at his head. when his hands started tensing and his breath hitched loudly, you could tell he wasn't gonna last a second longer.

"i'm gonna cum, baby," he grunts. his eyes blink open to peer down at you. your pretty, half lidded eyes meet his through your lashes, tracing the smooth surface of your tongue along the prominent vein on his shaft. the sensation makes him hiss as his last reigns of self control snap along with the coil that had been steadily building in his abdomen.

"fuck, fuck, fuck," he chants, both hands coming to your head to push it down as his hips cants up needily to grt his cock to hit the back of your throat. your hands can feel the way his balls tighten as ropes of cum start shooting into your mouth. "i'm c-cumming, 'm cumming! shittt!"

his body practically melts at the way you milk him. a satisfied smirk tugs at the corners of his mouth when he feels you swallow the remaining drops of cum that bead out his tip, a long, drawn out moan tearing its way past his throat.

jake would think that you would've stopped there. you normally do. little does he knoe that he's in for a long night.

his body jolts to attention as you continue to suck on his cock, bobbing your head slowly. breathy whines start leaving his lips, a stark contrast to the rough grunts and groans he was letting out earlier. his hands simply tighten their grip on your hair, unsure of whether to pull you off of his sensitive shaft or to push you further down to deep throat him once more.

"w-wait– oh, fuckkk! sweethert, please–" he tries talking, he really does. but, he can barely get a word out with the way you continue hollowing your cheeks around his overstimmed shaft.

"stop, stop..." however, tears cloud his eyes the moment he feels his entire body flush with need, another impending orgasm building alarmingly quick. he was going to lose his absolute mind if you stopped now.

"don't... don't stop, baby. oh my fucking god, don't stop." his eyes sunch shut, tears leaking out of them as his thighs tense beneath your hold. "holy shit, you're gonna make me cum again."

"give it to me, jakey." you come up to catch your breath, settling for pumping your hand along his length and squeezing his head just the way he likes it. "for me, okay? wanna see you cum again one more time, please," you murmur, begging for him with a sweet tone to your already fucked out voice.

and how could jake ever say no to you? your words send him so close to the edge, his back arching off the bed as his hips thrust up into your tight mouth needily. he sobs out in ecstasy when you rub your tongue along his slit repeatedly.

"fuck! 'm gonna cum again," he cries out, panting heavily into the steamy room. his chest heaves as his second high hits him like a truck. he swear he can see stars behind his eyes, his brows furrowing as he writhes atop the sheets from the sheer intensity of his orgasm.

"take it." he pushes your head down so that your nose meets his pelvis. "that's it, princess– oh my god– take it like the good slut you are," he groans, his bottom lip caught between his teeth as he lets you suck every last bit of his release in your mouth.

before you get the chance to suck at his cock even more, he pulls you off of him. in a flash, he has you pinned in between him and the sheets. his arms are on either side of your head as he leans down to capture your lips in a hungry kiss.

"need to fuck you," he pants breathlessly. despite having cum two times already, his dick is still painfully hard. "can't stop til i get to cum inside my princess, can i?"

[chrolloluvr]

May I request Mammon angst HCs please? Like the reader is possibly breaking up with him or something? (i love your HCs for mammon<3)

Mammon Breaking Up Hcs

note: Thank you i'm so glad you like them pookie!! also yes i love this idea ❤️❤️

warnings: Cursing, creepy behavior, unbalanced power dynamic, killing. Not proofread!

Female!Reader, (no specific gender, so can be GenderNeutral!Reader)

It would be best to tell him over text, since he is guaranteed to throw a toddler like temper tantrum if you ever told him in person.

So you text him over text, what happens? He 100% thinks you're joking at first. He thinks you aren't being serious at all, and that wow babe, you might even be a bigger clown than I am.

But when he realized that you were being serious, he gets angry. How dare you? Why would you ever break up with him? He is the king of greed, he has trillions of dollars in the bank, so why don't you want to stay by his side? Did he do something? Did he hurt you? What happened? Baby, we can sort this out-

In a way, still doesn't think you are being serious, which is what he tries to tell himself. So he will let you leave, and will act like he doesn't need you.

Another author said this already, but he will 100% go through the stages of grief, (he will never go through acceptance, because in his mind, you will always come crawling back to him.)

He will be in denial for a very long time. Let's say you move out, and even start residing in another ring. He will send you texts. All. The. Time.

Your phone will mods likely have 103 Missed Calls, 986 Messages, and 37 Voicemails. He is crazy, and especially crazy for you. So when you don't respond to him, he does not understand why. He likes to think that you were just going on vacation for a while. He genuinely thinks you two are still together.

Anger- Once he sees that you have indeed moved on, and that he is no longer living in fantasy land, he gets extremely angry. His general mood spikes, he lashes out (wayyy more than he used to), and a-lot of his servants are scared to talk to him. Will absolutely keep bombarding you with texts every day. He will even get his servants to start texting you on his 100's of extra HellPhones.

Mamm 🕸️💚 11:34

Come hone ygu little cungt

Mamm 🕸️💚 11:35

ANSWERF ME.

Mamm 🕸️💚 11:35

Do ygu knoe how easily i can replaece yu

Mamm🕸️💚 11:36

Fine go shack uo with sorm dirty hoboes you little slut

Mamm 🕸️💚 11:36

I dont kneed u and youir mediocar holes

So yeah... thats just one example. He has so many spelling mistakes because he is typing so fast, and practically brekaing his phone from how angry he is.

But in reality he does need you. You are. the one thing that keeps him running. However he will never, over his dead body, ever admit that.

Bargaining- He will send things to your... new home... in gift baskets. Fizzarolli plushies, flowers, tickets to his live events, expensive jewelry, the list goes on. It gets to a point where (if you live in an apartment complex) People start stealing his gifts and start putting them up online to sell. (And they go for 10s of thousands of dollars.)

He send these to you so that you can hopefully come crawling back into his life, so that he can control you again.

At this point, you have most likely made it public about your distance between you and the sin. Your relationship was extremely public, and known by everybody.

He refuses to speak publicly, because he wants people to think he still controls you. And when i say your relationship was big, it was definitely the most talked about relationship in all of Hell. People will go nuts about you two breaking up. Another author said this as well, but people will go crazy with the comments.

"L Mammon fumbled so bad its actually wild."

"Bros got plenty other options 💀"

"Why tf would she/they break up w/ HIM???🤰"

"Now that hes single I call dibs 🙌"

You try your best to ignore the comments, but eventually you cant, its not just online, but in real life you feel cornered as well. You might even start to reconsider your departure with him. Which is exactly where he wants you.

Depression- He spirals into somewhat of an insecure man. He strives to be better. He ups his game for his big pageants, soon to be bigger, just to impress you.

He maaaay or may not have killed people in your favor. This is known, obviously, but his obsession along with his newfound insecurity has left him no choice but to show that if you dont want to come home, he will show you its safer than anywhere else.

Overall, if you do end up coming back to him, he is overjoyed with happiness, and will take extra precautions to ensure you wont ever walk out on him and his warm embrace again.

However if you end up never wanting anything to do with him, he will be devastated, but he will force himself to get over it. He is Mammon, he truly does not need you. In reality, you were somebody he felt an unexplainable feeling to protect. He absolutely can live without you, but for some reason, he feels like he cant. If somebody were to ever bring you up, he would lash out, and make his anger everybody's problem. He may get over you after a while, but he will never fully accept the fact that you left him.

[bluemari23]

Hello Mari, how are you? I was very happy with the new notifications! Your writing is one of my favorites🙃❤️.

If you feel comfortable, could you write a headcanon aimed at the BTS members where we are the boys' romantic interest, being the 8th in the group? Maybe a foreign member.

NOTE: Thank you very much for your attention! I'm happy to see you back, a big hug❤️.

Hello! thank you so much!

and i took this almost as a poly idea the second i read it, so thats kind of how i wrote your ask if that's okay! :)

bf!namjoon who constantly tries to hide negative comments about you during live, not wanting you to see any hate for being their 8th member. He and the boys know that your relationship with them is a secret, but cant help but to still try to protect you from anything and everything. Knows when something is wrong during an interview and immediately will send a signal to their manage that the interview is over. Tries to be a confidant to you and help you integrate into idol society as their new member.

bf!jin who just tries to do whatever he can to help you in any way. "Oppa will do it". Knows you are independent but loves to help you with the little things like opening a jar of pickles. Will keep snacks near by for you knowing how you tend to stress eat. Will forever be your cooking buddy despite you loving to bake. Wants to try to bake for you but you might need to help him not put too much baking soda into the baked good.

bf!yoongi who may not show it, but is so in love with you that he knows everything. he is so observant and knows exactly how you like your orange peeled (with none of the white stuff left because you can't stand the texture of it). Loves that you will hold his whenever he wants and for as long as he wants. Will never move first when cuddling on the couch, waiting until you make the first move. Is the first to sense something wrong by watching your facial expressions and body movements (like how you rub your fingers together when nervous or anxious).

bf!hoseok who takes extra time to help you learn all of their choreography so you don't falll behind with their new music/choreo. Is the best at getting you up and out of bed when you feel down from the hate youre getting online. will bring you your favorite coffee/tea when he knows you have an early morning. buys you your wardrobe (along with jimin) as they both want to dress you and take pride in the fact that you were the clothes they buy you. loves to dress you up in matching outfits.

bf!jimin who is very cuddly and affectionate. loves to lean on you and have you lean on him. spends a lot of time just being a buddy while you do chores or are getting ready for a schedule. just loves to being your ocmpany, not needing anything planned. will just lay in bed with you for hours, keeping you from stewing too long on things not in your control. stops the company from putting you on a diet for their next comeback because you are absolutely perfect to him and the boys.

bf!taehyung who loves to go explore with you. any new city you guys go to he likes to take you out to explore life in the city and find new places. loves to buy you accessories like scarves and sunglasses because then you guys match. taehyung who reads out all the "marry me y/n" and maybe makes some up just to see you smile and politely decline. loves trying to get a reaction out of you and maybe tag teams with jungkook to see who could get you flustered the most first.

bf!jungkook who loves to assert his dominance and "throw you around". loves to pick you up in his arms and throw you onto the couch or bed before smothering you in kisses. keeps you favorite treat in his bag so he can share it with you before jin sees. loves to do karaoke sessions with you on live and gets frequently caught by army staring at you in awe. jungkook who insists on sharing verses with you because he loves how your two voices mesh together. jungkook who knoes exactly how you like your ramen and makes it up before bringing it to you with a grin on his face.

[midnight1nk]

Oughough hello I notice you referring to Puzzles and Four as two sides of the same coin and such. As a fellow parallels liker. Uh.

sorry can I interest you in my stupid long masterpost thing of all Parallels I notice involving the silly TV man? Maychance I have missed something I dont knoe I just.

Sorry I think they're fun I love theymn I love talking about them and I think you're cool so l am. Talk about common interest? Or something...

sorry. Tired and maybe acting on impulse. Rn. Apparently impulse it to talk to you. Via askbox

It's no bother at all, really! I would love to review it, always a fan of 4 and Puzzles "two sides, same coin" talk. It's a lot more surprising for me that yall care about what I say, just as how you think "I'm cool" or that I'm apparently based. (yes, moots I'm looking directly at you /lh /aff) I'm still unsure what yall see in me but nevertheless, it really is sweet to say these things. Truly, I'm just a theorist doing silly posts 💙

Well, I looked it over and you pretty much nailed it! While Puzzles is "what 4 could've been", she does parallel with the others in the Crew, some bits here and there. You did a pretty good job pointing them out and I agree that "we're not so different, you and I" speech should happen.

Man, if I were to write PV plus, I would have Puzzles say it first, not only for cursed keyboard reasons but also to show how tragic Puzzles really is. She had no support system, a chance to bring happiness to their respective audience. Unlike him, and it's about time she proves she has creative vision. That she could surpass him in every way possible. But by the very end, aside from having the heroic reprise of "Creative Control", 4 would also have this speech to Puzzles. It might take time to reluctantly agree they're part of the same coin (3 perhaps???) but they really are. To see how expectations and loneliness impacted them greatly, both similarly and differently, and how friendships mean to them. The support system they learn to have. Whatever happens next, each would have their choices.

Pretty much how I wrote in one of my ep concepts, "We're entertainers. It's our desire to make the audience happy, no matter the cost". The two of them are SO complex and compelling, I love it. Now I wish I had fully developed the new and improved goop!4 theory bc I totally would've added more. But really, it was a great read, I'm glad you let me know about it ^^

thanks for the ask!

[arlerts-angel]

hi mack!! congrats on 500 followers 🥺🩷

for your 500 followers event:

personality wise, im generally a very quiet person who struggles making friends, but the few that i do have i rly treasure. im pretty sarcastic and love making jokes, usually at my own expense lmao. im an infp on the 16 personalities test (not sure if this is helpful 😅)

looks wise, i have long wavg black hair and green eyes. id describe my style as a mix of girly and alternative. i wear a lot of skirts and dresses although i love baggy cargo pants too.

aot is my main fandom so any character from that would be perfect <33

tysm ml!! 🤍

i'm pairing you with: 𝑪𝑶𝑵𝑵𝑰𝑬 𝑺𝑷𝑹𝑰𝑵𝑮𝑬𝑹.ᐟ

you NYE together looks like:

connie spoiling you as per usual. taking you shopping, getting your nails done together, and eating your favorite food. gotta be ready for eren's party at 8 though. he loves to party and encourages you to come with because he knoes you know how to have fun. he'll find you no matter where you are to get his midnight kiss. 🩶

[profic-orbot]

I don't knoe too much about qanon, but I read your post - what is qanon about? ☁️

🔴 We're not an expert on this since we were out of the country when it began, we think, but it is a conspiracy theorist group and ideology centered on Trump being a messiah and the elites being satanic pedophiles, except the elites aren't people like elon musk, they just so happen to be everyone they hate such as queer people, poc, Jewish people, etc.

🔴 Recently, contrapoints has released a long but very informative video on conspiracies as a whole, and she also gets into what qanon is.

🔴 We're not suggesting that we need to get fully conspiratorial in return, but rather, to not engage with what is clearly conspiracy thinking with any degree of sincerity.

[glueser]

hey guys its me

just for reference

BY THE WAY IF I MAKE YOU UPSET OR UNCOMFORTABLE PLEASE TELL ME SO THAT I KNOE WHAT NOT TO DO OR SAY!!! I WOULD RATHER BE UPSET AT MYSELF THAN HAVE YOU BE UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE OF SOMETHING I DID OR SAID /nf /gensrs /lh

the names i go by are Jacob or Taz :3

PLEASE ONLY CALL ME NICKNAMES IF WE ARE FRIENDS/MUTUALS!!! i am very uncomfortable with strangers calling me nicnames /gensrs

theantthatstoleyourlunch -> glueser

my old blog was @/redditplatinum

I dont have a strict dni just dont be weird

i have 0 personal tags i never remember to my posts with personal tags but i try to put tw and cw tags for things in posts that might be sensitive content for some reason and if i forget please dm me the thing i forgot to put a tw/cw tag on :)

my art blog is @/glueser-draws

I have a gimmick blog called @bands-where-they-shouldnt-be

this blog will be focused on random stuff idk.

My other fandoms (not special interests) are BFDI (including bfdia and etc), dhmis, spider-man (mostly spiderverse), the lego movie, and some other stuff

also silly little thing erm i do not ship characters i like but a lot of the cool art of characters i like is ship art

so uh *curls up in a corner and cries* /hj /silly

I also have tags #fav #favorite #archive #my favorites just for my own evil nefarious purposes (remembiering things)

also i'll try to tag long posts as glueser epic rant

I also have a strawpage ig yeah

BLINKIES UNDER CUT !!

[evilbuggocraig]

hey moopie! it’s jordsn heh. i’m gonna yap again i’m gonna say different stuff but please know every single thing i said in the last one still applies 1000%!

okay first i want u to know that you are SO PRETTY like oh my gosh. kind of random and i knoe that me telling you this doesn’t really solve anything because you feel like you aren’t and my words can’t really change that mindset, but i’m gonna say it anyways cuz it’s true! you’re so gorgeous, inside and out, and you don’t need to change anything and you certainly do NOT need to starve or hurt yourself to be pretty, trust me! rhose feelings are the worst, i know in the moment they feel relieving and like they “helped” but in the long run, and even shortly after they don’t. think about how your burns hurting, the struggle of having to hide things, and the overall stress those things add to everything you already have going on. overall message — you’re a BADDIE and don’t hurt yourself! i will sing deaf papis “stop dont cut yourself” to you if i must…

i also want you to know that your feelings around the things you’re posting about in relation to people (that one person in the discord ignoring your vent to vent about their issues, your mom and all that, etc) are so valid. ima be so honest i was SEETHING with rage! and it doesn’t really matter what their excuse is, especially with your mom, they should know better and what you feel towards it is so valid. what i don’t think is valid ( in the sense of that’s not true / shouldn’t happen ) though is for you to take it out on yourself. other people’s suckiness ( is that a word… ) is not your fault. you are an amazing person, and i know that any of this is NOT your fault. you are amazing, the people who deserve the feelings you have towards yourself are the people who suck.

another feeling you have that is valid is the diagnosis stuff. i fear i don’t have much advice towards that, especially cuz the system sucks, but wanting to be diagnosed is so so so valid. although you don’t need something official to “prove your sickness”, the feeling is something that is valid and i hope you know that. i’m so sorry that you can’t get what you need.

i lvoe you very much moop!! you’re my goat and i want you to know that i’m always here for anything. i’m gonna start trying to text you in the morning with like. an affirmation or reminder or something. KIND OF LAME I KNOW SO TELL ME IF YOU DONT WANT ME TO! but i think it could help possibly idk i want to help you i’m just busy and awkward so i’m gonna start making time to write things like this and text you more! ily moop keep going!!!

I want you to know that when I was going to answer this i accidentally pressed the trash button and I almost cried. Anyways!

thank you Jordan. Genuinely you are so sweet thank you so much. I really appreciate these text because just. Idk. You’re over here like reading my text and like. Analyzing shit. Thank you so much Jordan ily jordan

[severedscales]

hi para ily para i got jumpscared when you reblogged my one off rb of jiu calling us gay 💔

i keep forgetting people know me and recognize me as an oc creator in alnst and so when people i look up to respond to me im like hey what thats not supposed to happen. anyways slash silly dw about it

ANYWAYS OC. Pirouette, aka Pirou!! they/them preferred but he/him too. I posted about them the other day with their official profile and trivia. They were given features as a child that were reminiscent of some sort of elf. Kinda elvish dragon? hybrid? Wtv, Pirou's owner, Venlyx, is like your average bookworm in our world and a "study of the ancient texts" in alnst LMAO. shes a fantasy book nerd and wanted to experiment and create a child with unique features. so Pirou has elf ears and a tail.

Pirou is also an ice skater. largely irrelevant to the plot tho id say, not like his whole thing or . anything /j hes so yuri on ice his whole thing is inspired by yuzuru hanyu

AS FOR HIS CRUSH ON JIU. he was supposed to be in season 40. he grew up in class 40. he was close friends with clove, clementine, and wren and was happy. again, he was kind of like till if the way he simped for jiu and it was like. they were such a boyfailure about it. they never really approached jiu bc theyre extremely shy and dont like confrontation. theyre extremely sweet and also,,, incredibly gullible.

as for why theyre not in season 40! well im so glad you asked (you didnt)! there was an . incident. right before s40 started. i havent posted that lore yet so dont worry about it too much. but either way, they were moved into class 41. and now watches as their friends (and crush) die in s40. love you pirou. they make new friends in c41 but its not the same ofc. they dont knoe them as long and theyre once again the center of attention because of their ears and tail,,, FUCK I YAPPED IN YOUR INVOX AGAIN ANYWAYS LOOK AT MY THEYTHEM RUNS AWAY IM WORKING ON ARTWORK THATLL SHOW THEIR TAIL

hi! sorry for getting to this late, it must've been disappointing to wait so long. i apologize, there's been a lot to worry about these days.

i quickly fell in love with pirou! i really adore the concept of figure skating and it's lovely to see it utilized in a character. his character design is so pretty as well, the elf features are so cute...

i think the whole thing with jiu is funny, especially since i've always associated jiu with ice and cold in my mind (the whole "ice prince" trope). very endearing of pirou to be drawn to a dull killjoy like jiu, i think their dynamic would be really fun to think about! i fear he'd be receiving the same treatment jiu gives to almost everyone which is polite indifference, though i guess he might not mind it much if the crush is more of a surface level thing (or if he's just as down as till).

they're very interesting... i'm guessing there's a lot of lore stuff that's about to go down regarding their transfer and all but i'm excited to see where you go with their character. thank you very much for sharing them, pirou's a delight to learn about!

actually, i think a part of why i'm quite fond of pirou is because they remind me a little of a scrapped oc i've kept in the backrooms for a while now (not to downplay pirou's uniqueness, of course, they're still quite different) i contemplated posting about him sooner or later, but i think if he and pirou ever got to meet they'd get along quite well :)

[kerizaret]

you're one of the wisest people i follow and i would like your wisdom

a person very dear to me has decided to abandon their old life. they messaged all of our moots then deleted all of their socials, changed their number simply cut off contact with everyone. none of our moots have heard of them in two months. how would you cope with that? how does one cope with essentially the death of a relationship? how does one move on from something like this? thank you for reading, you don't have to answer if all of this makes you uncomfortable. 🦈

Hello, anon, in really sorry that happened to you :( it it must be really stressful and scary, especially when it's been so long. From thr way you're talking about it I imagine you didn't know that person irl, so I suppose that you have no way of contacting anyone close to them that isn't in thr mutuals circle.. it sounds really hard, being so completely in the dark and left so suddenly

I don't know if i can really give you any.. advice, on coping, no matter how wise or not I might be. not because I don't want to but I don't think there's like... a "right" way to deal with a difficult situation like that? Or one that will guarantee it to feel better. If there even exists one really. I dont know if what i might suggest would work for you or not, nor can I be completely sure how I'd act, since I also don't know all the details.. and I'm also talking from the perspective of someone who hasn't experienced that and might be completely wrong

but what I csn tell you is, at least from what I get from what you said, is that I hope you don't blame yourself for this too much. I don't know if that person gave you all their reasoning for this, but since they completely and suddenly left so many peoplethat didnt expect it, and especially if they were someone you considered dear, it feels like maybe it was moreso something going on with their own life that caused this? Maybe they needed this, or maybe they had some problem, or maybe someone forced this on them... but i wouldnt know. But I think its better for uou and your mutuals who stayed to support each other and be kind to each other and yourselves too..

And I think you're also allowed to be frustrated and sad about being left and not having a chance to prepare or explain it before the person just disappeared. Bc it hurts too and it's sad and frustrating you couldn't do anything and suddenly lost a friend. That they jusy decided that themselves. Yk?

I don't know how I'd cope really. I know id be scared and stressed and upset that i dont knoe anything snd that something couldve happened to thrm, but prbably angry at being left behind while also wondering if id done something wrong. I mightve talked about it with friends or trusted family or my therapist.. I probbaly would want to support my other mutuals who were upset by this too and try to help them feel better too. Id probbalu think of what id done wrong and if it's my fault and maybe search for what I could've done better.. I mightve personally drawn something inspired by this to make myself feel better, even if I only kept it to myself 😭 but I'm not sure if this helps... but maybe doing something physical with it like writing down your thoughts even if it's like a journal entry nobody will see, or drawing random lines of frustration or sadness to get the feelings out, or letting out the feelings in some way thats not destructive.. maybe its something to do? I know i like to do that, i think..

But tbh knowing .hself I might've tried to work on smth to not think about tbis and be distracted but j don't think that's too healthy so maybe don't follow that 😭 but maybe sometimes hetting disteacted eith something lighter could be good too.?? I.. don't know. I'm sorry haha I'm not good att thus. don't really know if I can really say mych more how I'd be dealing with it or if what im saying makrs sense or can help you. But I hope I'd remember what I said before to u too. At least that's how I'm trying to look at it

I can only wish you the best anon <3 hang in there. I'm really sorry for what happened but I love you ok? I'll be hoping for the best for you and your mutuals and your lost friend

[vampire-loving-vampire]

i dont have any eloquent words to say but im very grateful my wife spent so long with me trying (and failing) to stream a show just to enjoy the things i enjoy , and then still spent awhile watching anothwr of my interests with me despite already being tired just because i had a really bad day so i didnt have to be alone . im grateful to know that at the end of the day theres always someone in my corner who values my feelings and needs so much , someone i can always rely on snd trust to be there for me even when im sad and depressing to be around. knoeing theres someone i can call at any time . thats special. i love u so much , i hope u know ut so so special , my soulmate, my lovely, my wife